slick moves and lies
Posted on: Thursday, June 11, 2009
Posted at: 10:35 PM
Posted at: 10:35 PM
had badminton with people today.
LOLS. monopoly-ed after playing badminton.
didnt expect to be so entralled by the game.
partly cos i guess it reminds everyone of childhood
and of course making big bucks through properties.
anyway, its just a once off thing, so its okay then.
good luck for the MONOPOLY COMPETITION anyway.
Rachel wrote this on her lakerol box (or sth like that)
"sometimes love comes to you when you're up, but it brings you down again."
i thought about it for awhile anyway.
thought it was quite true lah.
but on a side note, i remembered that i shouldn't think too much.
so i stopped thinking.
sometimes its really not about how deeply-rooted you are
its also not really about how you're hurting, or how you wished you had done this or that,
its also probably not about how submerged in pain you are.
Im just another human, I wont be able to predict what happens if I do this or that,
so all i can do make a decision and dont look back.
and i cant look back anymore.
the more i look back, the more im going to regret.
the more i regret, the more im going to fall into a trap.
the more i fall into a trap, the more i get vulnerable i am.
so there you go.
i realise this throughout the whole time.
just when you thought that it cant get any worse and just when you thought that you will die and probably want to mutilate to spare yourself from the rush of emotions,
you get through it.
Daughtry's song made me realise this though.
but its super super super super true.
i think i have made a few right decisions so far.
but i know that 2 right doesnt make up for 1 wrong.
you really wake up from all the dreams that have made you float around at times.
but for me, this was a jolt.
A jolt to tell me that some people, no matter what they say, there are always a fraction of lies in them.
These lies, dont build up overnight.
it all start with one lie, in order to cover up, you lie profusely.
IF? if i had known, i wouldnt have made such a decision.
i dont need you to tell me IF. i would give you a million IFS if i needed them.
apologies are not needed too.
cos why? whats there to apologise?
will apologising make it better? undo lies?
crying is not much use to me now.
it will just feel like some random droplets of water.
just because of people like you.
that have to put people through emotional roller coasters.
just because of people like you.
why? you can now stick in your own hole.
if you dare to do something, then dont be afraid of letting people know.
thats pure cowardice.
i'm sorry to say that i had second thoughts before that significant message.
now, im just happy to know that you are there, with your life worser than ever.
people still text you cos they still wanna help and care.
since you hate it so much, then i shant bother.
cos its so f-ing idiotic of me.
i know im idiotic, but i still do it. stupid aint it?
continue being rude then. do it again then.
i came with good intentions, and left with bad impressions.
LOLS. monopoly-ed after playing badminton.
didnt expect to be so entralled by the game.
partly cos i guess it reminds everyone of childhood
and of course making big bucks through properties.
anyway, its just a once off thing, so its okay then.
good luck for the MONOPOLY COMPETITION anyway.
Rachel wrote this on her lakerol box (or sth like that)
"sometimes love comes to you when you're up, but it brings you down again."
i thought about it for awhile anyway.
thought it was quite true lah.
but on a side note, i remembered that i shouldn't think too much.
so i stopped thinking.
sometimes its really not about how deeply-rooted you are
its also not really about how you're hurting, or how you wished you had done this or that,
its also probably not about how submerged in pain you are.
Im just another human, I wont be able to predict what happens if I do this or that,
so all i can do make a decision and dont look back.
and i cant look back anymore.
the more i look back, the more im going to regret.
the more i regret, the more im going to fall into a trap.
the more i fall into a trap, the more i get vulnerable i am.
so there you go.
i realise this throughout the whole time.
just when you thought that it cant get any worse and just when you thought that you will die and probably want to mutilate to spare yourself from the rush of emotions,
you get through it.
Daughtry's song made me realise this though.
but its super super super super true.
i think i have made a few right decisions so far.
but i know that 2 right doesnt make up for 1 wrong.
you really wake up from all the dreams that have made you float around at times.
but for me, this was a jolt.
A jolt to tell me that some people, no matter what they say, there are always a fraction of lies in them.
These lies, dont build up overnight.
it all start with one lie, in order to cover up, you lie profusely.
IF? if i had known, i wouldnt have made such a decision.
i dont need you to tell me IF. i would give you a million IFS if i needed them.
apologies are not needed too.
cos why? whats there to apologise?
will apologising make it better? undo lies?
crying is not much use to me now.
it will just feel like some random droplets of water.
just because of people like you.
that have to put people through emotional roller coasters.
just because of people like you.
why? you can now stick in your own hole.
if you dare to do something, then dont be afraid of letting people know.
thats pure cowardice.
i'm sorry to say that i had second thoughts before that significant message.
now, im just happy to know that you are there, with your life worser than ever.
people still text you cos they still wanna help and care.
since you hate it so much, then i shant bother.
cos its so f-ing idiotic of me.
i know im idiotic, but i still do it. stupid aint it?
continue being rude then. do it again then.
i came with good intentions, and left with bad impressions.