Reflections in a mirror
Posted on: Sunday, June 28, 2009
Posted at: 9:16 PM
Posted at: 9:16 PM
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio :"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"
1) Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2) When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3) Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4) Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5) Pay off your credit cards every month.
6) You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7) Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8) It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9) Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10) When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11) Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12) It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13) Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14) If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15) Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16) Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17) Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18) Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19) It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20) When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21) Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22) Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23) Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24) The most important sex organ is the brain.
25) No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26) Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?"
27) Always choose life.
28) Forgive everyone everything.
29) What other people think of you is none of your business.
30) Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31) However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32) Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33) Believe in miracles.
34) God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35) Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36) Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37) Your children get only one childhood.
38) All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39) Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40) If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41) Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42) The best is yet to come.
43) No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44) Yield.
45) Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
i thought this was really meaningful.
was back from confi camp and school is starting tmr.
real glad that i went for the last day of the confi camp
learnt a lot of things, especially on confirmation day
All we got to do is believe in God,
and love.
Love is so essential for everyone on earth.
without love, i doubt anyone can really survive.
hahah. i love confi 4'09!
pics will be up soon (i hope._.)
Imma reinvent myself! :D
thanks to all who tagged, truth to be told, im too lazy to reply.
so thanks anyway:D
i missed you too, Rachel!
1) Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2) When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3) Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4) Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5) Pay off your credit cards every month.
6) You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7) Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8) It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9) Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10) When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11) Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12) It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13) Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14) If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15) Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16) Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17) Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18) Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19) It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20) When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21) Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22) Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23) Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24) The most important sex organ is the brain.
25) No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26) Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?"
27) Always choose life.
28) Forgive everyone everything.
29) What other people think of you is none of your business.
30) Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31) However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32) Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33) Believe in miracles.
34) God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35) Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36) Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37) Your children get only one childhood.
38) All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39) Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40) If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41) Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42) The best is yet to come.
43) No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44) Yield.
45) Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
i thought this was really meaningful.
was back from confi camp and school is starting tmr.
real glad that i went for the last day of the confi camp
learnt a lot of things, especially on confirmation day
All we got to do is believe in God,
and love.
Love is so essential for everyone on earth.
without love, i doubt anyone can really survive.
hahah. i love confi 4'09!
pics will be up soon (i hope._.)
Imma reinvent myself! :D
thanks to all who tagged, truth to be told, im too lazy to reply.
so thanks anyway:D
i missed you too, Rachel!
random rants
Posted on: Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Posted at: 11:18 PM
Posted at: 11:18 PM
suddenly, i just felt like throwing everything on my table on the wall.
and that includes my homework.
I CAN SEE IT PILING AND PILING AND PILING UP.
and im very angry and upset with myself that i cant seem to complete it.
and the reasons are:
one, im down with this common flu bug. and it wont get off me for like 4 days. fever for 4 days.
how to do work? prolly die off as soon as i start.
two, after when i can start, i feel woozy due to medication.
AH WELL, thats all my excuse.
and i dont have time left.
RAH.
desperate means call for desperate measures.
i've got a feeling that the transformers soundtrack is really good and i gotta get it.
hah. dont ask me why.
im still having a trauma attack over hannah montana.
aha. ask Rachel. She'll tell you why. hahahhahah.
i just received a phone call anyway.
not that im obliged to tell you all what i said and whatever the person told me.
but i just want to tell people in the world a few things.
i think everyone should think of others first. Sometimes, decisions made by people may seem real stupid, real ridiculous, so irrational that sparks off siren in your brain.
BUT BUT BUT, my dears, think before you act!
i realise people also change a lot when it comes to this certain stage.
ah yes, everyone likes to say.
the scenes have changed, but i have not.
but thats not true.
well, scenes have changed.
but i realise people get more ruthless. more daring to push for what they want.
not that i disagree with it, but i hope things can turn out in a way that it doesnt have to involve tongue lashing at each other, and most certainly no cat fights.
dont waste your energy, channel them to get inner peace. MUAHAHAH.
alright, i side-tracked and you prolly dont get what im talking either. LOL.
there is not much point running yourselves down either.
(ah, that magnificent, glorious scene is coming back)
anyway, just do your best.
just wanna say this:
Dont undermine what people can do. It isnt right for you to say anything, when you havent helped a person to do something right.
your heart do soften when you see people crying. i still dont know whether i did the right thing.
BUT. dont look back. look forward! and my dear O levels, im coming.
and my birthday is embedded right in the middle of it ):
and that includes my homework.
I CAN SEE IT PILING AND PILING AND PILING UP.
and im very angry and upset with myself that i cant seem to complete it.
and the reasons are:
one, im down with this common flu bug. and it wont get off me for like 4 days. fever for 4 days.
how to do work? prolly die off as soon as i start.
two, after when i can start, i feel woozy due to medication.
AH WELL, thats all my excuse.
and i dont have time left.
RAH.
desperate means call for desperate measures.
i've got a feeling that the transformers soundtrack is really good and i gotta get it.
hah. dont ask me why.
im still having a trauma attack over hannah montana.
aha. ask Rachel. She'll tell you why. hahahhahah.
i just received a phone call anyway.
not that im obliged to tell you all what i said and whatever the person told me.
but i just want to tell people in the world a few things.
i think everyone should think of others first. Sometimes, decisions made by people may seem real stupid, real ridiculous, so irrational that sparks off siren in your brain.
BUT BUT BUT, my dears, think before you act!
i realise people also change a lot when it comes to this certain stage.
ah yes, everyone likes to say.
the scenes have changed, but i have not.
but thats not true.
well, scenes have changed.
but i realise people get more ruthless. more daring to push for what they want.
not that i disagree with it, but i hope things can turn out in a way that it doesnt have to involve tongue lashing at each other, and most certainly no cat fights.
dont waste your energy, channel them to get inner peace. MUAHAHAH.
alright, i side-tracked and you prolly dont get what im talking either. LOL.
there is not much point running yourselves down either.
(ah, that magnificent, glorious scene is coming back)
anyway, just do your best.
just wanna say this:
Dont undermine what people can do. It isnt right for you to say anything, when you havent helped a person to do something right.
your heart do soften when you see people crying. i still dont know whether i did the right thing.
BUT. dont look back. look forward! and my dear O levels, im coming.
and my birthday is embedded right in the middle of it ):
what a b****
Posted on:
Posted at: 12:11 AM
Posted at: 12:11 AM
sometimes, looking back after all the nonsense you have endured,
you just feel like having a nice peaceful and serene place to relax
and just maybe, just forget everything.
oh well, it gets more and more difficult as time passes.
but anyway, i just wanna re-enact all i have experienced.
cos i didnt have a chance and probably, fate didnt permit me to do it.
well. i remember my old blog.
and i wonder how many of the --- do remember it.
remember what happen to my tagboard.
and im glad i had rachel and chingyee at that time.
and anyway, to that person who had so inexplicably said so many words on my tagboard,
how many of it reflected your own doings
wow, those were the times.
the hardest times, and i really wonder now.
who really really knew how hard people fought.
i think there were times you didnt even have a bit of human nature.
i just hope that the next time you'd like to go off and shoot off your thoughts,
you would have contemplated what would happen after that
thinking back now,
i do realise some of my actions were a little unreasonable.
hmm, but probably out of anger or whatever.
Anyway,if you're not too caught up in your little world,
perhaps you would like to look at how people around you view you
much worthy thanks to you, your actions have just disgusted so many around you.
and i wont be surprised if it hasnt tainted the good name of some.
all thanks to a few foolish acts of yours.
and another thing.
i think if let's say you dont want to be friends,
then alright, lets say it out front.
i dont need your dirty looks to survive with, okay?
yes, i hope i see you nodding.
because i dont think it would kill for a smile.
and in addition to that,
i dont give a damn to anything alr.
thanks to your famous, or should i say infamous BFC,
i just wanna scream shout declare, throw things at you, rail at the top pf my voice, and tell you.
I JUST ABOUT HAD ENOUGH FROM YOU!
dun blame me for saying this.
well, if this is a first for you.
its okay, everyone learns,
its best if you know you are a bitch or bastard sooner than later.
at least there might be some cure.
well, at least i hope you still can be cured.
despite all these things that have happened,
its okay.
you might want to call me a hypocrite, or egoistic.
BUT WHATEVER.
3 cheers for you anyway,
for letting me see how a good frienemy you have been.
at least, i have worked with other wonderful people.
im gonna end off here.
if you dont like what you're seeing, dont tag
MSN me. dont be a coward.
sms me if you like too (:
its okay(:
you just feel like having a nice peaceful and serene place to relax
and just maybe, just forget everything.
oh well, it gets more and more difficult as time passes.
but anyway, i just wanna re-enact all i have experienced.
cos i didnt have a chance and probably, fate didnt permit me to do it.
well. i remember my old blog.
and i wonder how many of the --- do remember it.
remember what happen to my tagboard.
and im glad i had rachel and chingyee at that time.
and anyway, to that person who had so inexplicably said so many words on my tagboard,
how many of it reflected your own doings
wow, those were the times.
the hardest times, and i really wonder now.
who really really knew how hard people fought.
i think there were times you didnt even have a bit of human nature.
i just hope that the next time you'd like to go off and shoot off your thoughts,
you would have contemplated what would happen after that
thinking back now,
i do realise some of my actions were a little unreasonable.
hmm, but probably out of anger or whatever.
Anyway,if you're not too caught up in your little world,
perhaps you would like to look at how people around you view you
much worthy thanks to you, your actions have just disgusted so many around you.
and i wont be surprised if it hasnt tainted the good name of some.
all thanks to a few foolish acts of yours.
and another thing.
i think if let's say you dont want to be friends,
then alright, lets say it out front.
i dont need your dirty looks to survive with, okay?
yes, i hope i see you nodding.
because i dont think it would kill for a smile.
and in addition to that,
i dont give a damn to anything alr.
thanks to your famous, or should i say infamous BFC,
i just wanna scream shout declare, throw things at you, rail at the top pf my voice, and tell you.
I JUST ABOUT HAD ENOUGH FROM YOU!
dun blame me for saying this.
well, if this is a first for you.
its okay, everyone learns,
its best if you know you are a bitch or bastard sooner than later.
at least there might be some cure.
well, at least i hope you still can be cured.
despite all these things that have happened,
its okay.
you might want to call me a hypocrite, or egoistic.
BUT WHATEVER.
3 cheers for you anyway,
for letting me see how a good frienemy you have been.
at least, i have worked with other wonderful people.
im gonna end off here.
if you dont like what you're seeing, dont tag
MSN me. dont be a coward.
sms me if you like too (:
its okay(:
that surcharge
Posted on: Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Posted at: 11:22 PM
Posted at: 11:22 PM
hmm, for a moment, i thought i lost my sense of enthusiasm for adventure and shopping and going out and whatever lah.
and im going to term it as STAYING OUT.
Hadn't really ventured out after school for a long while now.
guess its kind of the work load and the revision and remedials and what-nots lah.
I used to remember going out almost every other day during sec 2 and first sem of s3
hah. those times were fun man.
anyway, i've been going out this whole week for short and long hours lah.
caught up with yun zhen and watched night at the museum.
nice show, nice gimmicks. nice ending. blah.
today went to cityhall.
i absolutely love museums now.
went to peranakan museum totally free and totally worth it.
philatetic museum too.
very cool anyway.
going to go some more museums soon.
and i wanna go see the Da Vinci show at Science Centre too.
i know its very weird to see teenagers going into museums.
but i swear its totally cool and worth it.
that is if you're interested in those stuff.
nice trip anyway.
i feel as if my 2 weeks of wolidays, no pun intended,
is being burned off at an exponential rate.
anyway, lets just say that after this is over.
IM FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE.
so if wanna go out with me, you can!
i've just got so little time left for everything.
i've got con camp, piano exam, homework.
wah, i hope i dont cave in soon.
and im going to term it as STAYING OUT.
Hadn't really ventured out after school for a long while now.
guess its kind of the work load and the revision and remedials and what-nots lah.
I used to remember going out almost every other day during sec 2 and first sem of s3
hah. those times were fun man.
anyway, i've been going out this whole week for short and long hours lah.
caught up with yun zhen and watched night at the museum.
nice show, nice gimmicks. nice ending. blah.
today went to cityhall.
i absolutely love museums now.
went to peranakan museum totally free and totally worth it.
philatetic museum too.
very cool anyway.
going to go some more museums soon.
and i wanna go see the Da Vinci show at Science Centre too.
i know its very weird to see teenagers going into museums.
but i swear its totally cool and worth it.
that is if you're interested in those stuff.
nice trip anyway.
i feel as if my 2 weeks of wolidays, no pun intended,
is being burned off at an exponential rate.
anyway, lets just say that after this is over.
IM FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE.
so if wanna go out with me, you can!
i've just got so little time left for everything.
i've got con camp, piano exam, homework.
wah, i hope i dont cave in soon.
hello. i believe you are reading this.
even if you're not, whatever.
turns out that, i dont care anymore.
if you're thinking its you, its you alright.
thats what you get for doing these mean tricks on people.
killing spree
Posted on: Saturday, June 13, 2009
Posted at: 11:14 PM
Posted at: 11:14 PM
hahah. went to watch HANNAH MONTANA.
LOLS. it was kinda weird lah.
5 secondary school students watching some kid show.
got quite a no. of movies i wanna catch.
anyone game to go with me?
anyway. i have completed a portion of my revision.
cant believe 2 weeks is already gone.
havent really accomplished anything on the other aspects of my life.
never mind, anyway. LOL.
its not that im not bothered, persay.
but its cos i kind of feel quite irritated still.
never mind. they are called IRRITANTS/ IRRITATING FLIES.
LOLS.
LOLS. it was kinda weird lah.
5 secondary school students watching some kid show.
got quite a no. of movies i wanna catch.
anyone game to go with me?
anyway. i have completed a portion of my revision.
cant believe 2 weeks is already gone.
havent really accomplished anything on the other aspects of my life.
never mind, anyway. LOL.
its not that im not bothered, persay.
but its cos i kind of feel quite irritated still.
never mind. they are called IRRITANTS/ IRRITATING FLIES.
LOLS.
If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it’s better than where we are now
But after going through this, it’s easier to see the reason why
It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
There’s nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There’s nothing here in this soul left to say
Don’t be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise
i almost sold my soul.
lucky i didnt sell it to you,
what a way to fake it.
slick moves and lies
Posted on: Thursday, June 11, 2009
Posted at: 10:35 PM
Posted at: 10:35 PM
had badminton with people today.
LOLS. monopoly-ed after playing badminton.
didnt expect to be so entralled by the game.
partly cos i guess it reminds everyone of childhood
and of course making big bucks through properties.
anyway, its just a once off thing, so its okay then.
good luck for the MONOPOLY COMPETITION anyway.
Rachel wrote this on her lakerol box (or sth like that)
"sometimes love comes to you when you're up, but it brings you down again."
i thought about it for awhile anyway.
thought it was quite true lah.
but on a side note, i remembered that i shouldn't think too much.
so i stopped thinking.
sometimes its really not about how deeply-rooted you are
its also not really about how you're hurting, or how you wished you had done this or that,
its also probably not about how submerged in pain you are.
Im just another human, I wont be able to predict what happens if I do this or that,
so all i can do make a decision and dont look back.
and i cant look back anymore.
the more i look back, the more im going to regret.
the more i regret, the more im going to fall into a trap.
the more i fall into a trap, the more i get vulnerable i am.
so there you go.
i realise this throughout the whole time.
just when you thought that it cant get any worse and just when you thought that you will die and probably want to mutilate to spare yourself from the rush of emotions,
you get through it.
Daughtry's song made me realise this though.
but its super super super super true.
i think i have made a few right decisions so far.
but i know that 2 right doesnt make up for 1 wrong.
you really wake up from all the dreams that have made you float around at times.
but for me, this was a jolt.
A jolt to tell me that some people, no matter what they say, there are always a fraction of lies in them.
These lies, dont build up overnight.
it all start with one lie, in order to cover up, you lie profusely.
IF? if i had known, i wouldnt have made such a decision.
i dont need you to tell me IF. i would give you a million IFS if i needed them.
apologies are not needed too.
cos why? whats there to apologise?
will apologising make it better? undo lies?
crying is not much use to me now.
it will just feel like some random droplets of water.
just because of people like you.
that have to put people through emotional roller coasters.
just because of people like you.
why? you can now stick in your own hole.
if you dare to do something, then dont be afraid of letting people know.
thats pure cowardice.
i'm sorry to say that i had second thoughts before that significant message.
now, im just happy to know that you are there, with your life worser than ever.
people still text you cos they still wanna help and care.
since you hate it so much, then i shant bother.
cos its so f-ing idiotic of me.
i know im idiotic, but i still do it. stupid aint it?
continue being rude then. do it again then.
i came with good intentions, and left with bad impressions.
LOLS. monopoly-ed after playing badminton.
didnt expect to be so entralled by the game.
partly cos i guess it reminds everyone of childhood
and of course making big bucks through properties.
anyway, its just a once off thing, so its okay then.
good luck for the MONOPOLY COMPETITION anyway.
Rachel wrote this on her lakerol box (or sth like that)
"sometimes love comes to you when you're up, but it brings you down again."
i thought about it for awhile anyway.
thought it was quite true lah.
but on a side note, i remembered that i shouldn't think too much.
so i stopped thinking.
sometimes its really not about how deeply-rooted you are
its also not really about how you're hurting, or how you wished you had done this or that,
its also probably not about how submerged in pain you are.
Im just another human, I wont be able to predict what happens if I do this or that,
so all i can do make a decision and dont look back.
and i cant look back anymore.
the more i look back, the more im going to regret.
the more i regret, the more im going to fall into a trap.
the more i fall into a trap, the more i get vulnerable i am.
so there you go.
i realise this throughout the whole time.
just when you thought that it cant get any worse and just when you thought that you will die and probably want to mutilate to spare yourself from the rush of emotions,
you get through it.
Daughtry's song made me realise this though.
but its super super super super true.
i think i have made a few right decisions so far.
but i know that 2 right doesnt make up for 1 wrong.
you really wake up from all the dreams that have made you float around at times.
but for me, this was a jolt.
A jolt to tell me that some people, no matter what they say, there are always a fraction of lies in them.
These lies, dont build up overnight.
it all start with one lie, in order to cover up, you lie profusely.
IF? if i had known, i wouldnt have made such a decision.
i dont need you to tell me IF. i would give you a million IFS if i needed them.
apologies are not needed too.
cos why? whats there to apologise?
will apologising make it better? undo lies?
crying is not much use to me now.
it will just feel like some random droplets of water.
just because of people like you.
that have to put people through emotional roller coasters.
just because of people like you.
why? you can now stick in your own hole.
if you dare to do something, then dont be afraid of letting people know.
thats pure cowardice.
i'm sorry to say that i had second thoughts before that significant message.
now, im just happy to know that you are there, with your life worser than ever.
people still text you cos they still wanna help and care.
since you hate it so much, then i shant bother.
cos its so f-ing idiotic of me.
i know im idiotic, but i still do it. stupid aint it?
continue being rude then. do it again then.
i came with good intentions, and left with bad impressions.
nice one.
Posted on: Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Posted at: 11:33 PM
Posted at: 11:33 PM
im really really really looking forward to the end of the week.
Anyway, i had Bakerzin with Rachel Soon yesterday.
Food was pretty good, though it was quite expensive.
didnt get to try the cake though.
hah. the next time i'm there im going to try it (:
badminton tmr,
hannah montana at jp2 on friday
confirmation briefing on friday.
hah. went jogging today.
and i thought quite hard while i was running.
ANYWAY, i went to have lunch at subway today.
and this sandwich artist came up to me and ask us,
"Are you all taking O lvl this year?"
hah. she told us she was from SAJC anyway.
probably cos we go to that outlet too often.
i realise i have this propensity to always go to subway and have my meals.
thought that was quite nice of her just to speak to us.
And i also realise i have the propensity to think too much.
ON MY OWN.
sometimes, i think everyone should stop thinking so much and lead their own life.
come on, i doubt you need to have a reason to speak right?
you talk for life and you never stop.
so blabber if you got the chance lah.
remember i was going to start having random acts of concern for people?
i just might have this idea to can it.
I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT STAND PEOPLE BEING SO RUDE WHEN OTHERS ARE JUST CONCERNED ABOUT HOW THEY ARE.
Stop being so conceited and think that others only think of themselves.
like i said,
if u have nothing to say,
dont be a smart aleck and put in stupid words.
it kind of shows how much a person you are.
I realise beginnings are really wonderful,
cos it is the start of all things good.
But endings, just hurt too much and thing is.
it never stops.
i see now.
Anyway, i had Bakerzin with Rachel Soon yesterday.
Food was pretty good, though it was quite expensive.
didnt get to try the cake though.
hah. the next time i'm there im going to try it (:
badminton tmr,
hannah montana at jp2 on friday
confirmation briefing on friday.
hah. went jogging today.
and i thought quite hard while i was running.
ANYWAY, i went to have lunch at subway today.
and this sandwich artist came up to me and ask us,
"Are you all taking O lvl this year?"
hah. she told us she was from SAJC anyway.
probably cos we go to that outlet too often.
i realise i have this propensity to always go to subway and have my meals.
thought that was quite nice of her just to speak to us.
And i also realise i have the propensity to think too much.
ON MY OWN.
sometimes, i think everyone should stop thinking so much and lead their own life.
come on, i doubt you need to have a reason to speak right?
you talk for life and you never stop.
so blabber if you got the chance lah.
remember i was going to start having random acts of concern for people?
i just might have this idea to can it.
I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT STAND PEOPLE BEING SO RUDE WHEN OTHERS ARE JUST CONCERNED ABOUT HOW THEY ARE.
Stop being so conceited and think that others only think of themselves.
like i said,
if u have nothing to say,
dont be a smart aleck and put in stupid words.
it kind of shows how much a person you are.
I realise beginnings are really wonderful,
cos it is the start of all things good.
But endings, just hurt too much and thing is.
it never stops.
i see now.
Anger
Posted on: Monday, June 8, 2009
Posted at: 11:53 PM
Posted at: 11:53 PM
i am quite pissed for the whole of today.
dont know why it was such a f-ing bad day.
if we cant keep your mouth shut,
im going to invest in super glue and shut it for you.
stop being bastards and think of others.
f you.
and you.
if you really mean it, then you better do it.
actions speak louder than words.
we are humans. we need assurance.
dont know why it was such a f-ing bad day.
if we cant keep your mouth shut,
im going to invest in super glue and shut it for you.
stop being bastards and think of others.
f you.
and you.
if you really mean it, then you better do it.
actions speak louder than words.
we are humans. we need assurance.
Promises
Posted on: Saturday, June 6, 2009
Posted at: 9:13 PM
Posted at: 9:13 PM
I know I havent been doing my best.
I know I havent been keeping my promises to you.
I havent changed. I dont want to. Because I'm still waiting.
Waiting for what, you ask me.
Waiting for the person who doesnt know it.
So a few days later,
I thought to myself.
why dont you just scrap the idea already?
why be so persistent?
hah. but thats just the way I am.
But havent you just been the same?
And these 5 five words are still screaming in my head.
"Are we having fun yet?"
And to those people out there,
who just decides to have a moment of silence,
dwell in regrets and decide to re-enact what you did before,
1 piece of advice:
There is not much point in doing it.
Dont dwell alone, dwell with the people that feel the same way
and with the people that you are regretting about.
However, if the person that you are regretting about doesnt feel the same way,
then i think its time to just say BLAH to that person,
and stop making ur brain work so hard.
That is unless the person still wishes for a happy ending with you.
Forgive but dont forget then.
How about just coming to me and talk it out? i ask.
I dont have anything to talk to you. was your reply
I know I havent been keeping my promises to you.
I havent changed. I dont want to. Because I'm still waiting.
Waiting for what, you ask me.
Waiting for the person who doesnt know it.
So a few days later,
I thought to myself.
why dont you just scrap the idea already?
why be so persistent?
hah. but thats just the way I am.
But havent you just been the same?
And these 5 five words are still screaming in my head.
"Are we having fun yet?"
And to those people out there,
who just decides to have a moment of silence,
dwell in regrets and decide to re-enact what you did before,
1 piece of advice:
There is not much point in doing it.
Dont dwell alone, dwell with the people that feel the same way
and with the people that you are regretting about.
However, if the person that you are regretting about doesnt feel the same way,
then i think its time to just say BLAH to that person,
and stop making ur brain work so hard.
That is unless the person still wishes for a happy ending with you.
Forgive but dont forget then.
How about just coming to me and talk it out? i ask.
I dont have anything to talk to you. was your reply
I sincerely hope that the happy ending comes to me.
touched.
Posted on: Monday, June 1, 2009
Posted at: 11:19 PM
Posted at: 11:19 PM
i have a feeling that this post is way past.
i just had this feeling that i should do through my past messages.
and read through a lot a lot a lot of messages.
i saved every single message that people sms-ed me after SYF.
and of course a few others.
its a wonder how people you dont really know,
dont really talk too,
can give you a word of encouragement.
Despite knowing a few facts about us,
im very touched to receive all the sms.
It was a pure random act of care and concern for practically strangers.
Often, everyone overlooks the fact that all of us need shoulders to cry on.
I still remember that fateful day.
I told myself I had to be strong.
But nevertheless, I broke down in the arms of my junior.
Couldn't help myself.
Even though all of us should look forward in life,
sometimes, you just feel that there are some things pulling you back.
You cant help but feel guilty over everything.
Alright, enough of all that. Regardless of what happens, I do hope I'm still in time to make amends.
Now, I've also gone through another set of messages.
Have you ever wondered how feelings could be conveyed through mere words by sms?
I have.
Sometimes, you dont need to have supernatural abilities to see through some things.
the coldness cant be felt.
I dont know, I really dont know.
Sometimes, I do wish that I have the answers to many things.
But unfortunately, I dont.
I wish for a lot of things not to happen.
In fact, if i had made the right decisions, many tragedies would not have happened.
however, I wouldn't have met many of the nice warm souls that have come into my life so unexpectedly.
i just had this feeling that i should do through my past messages.
and read through a lot a lot a lot of messages.
i saved every single message that people sms-ed me after SYF.
and of course a few others.
its a wonder how people you dont really know,
dont really talk too,
can give you a word of encouragement.
Despite knowing a few facts about us,
im very touched to receive all the sms.
It was a pure random act of care and concern for practically strangers.
Often, everyone overlooks the fact that all of us need shoulders to cry on.
I still remember that fateful day.
I told myself I had to be strong.
But nevertheless, I broke down in the arms of my junior.
Couldn't help myself.
Even though all of us should look forward in life,
sometimes, you just feel that there are some things pulling you back.
You cant help but feel guilty over everything.
Alright, enough of all that. Regardless of what happens, I do hope I'm still in time to make amends.
Now, I've also gone through another set of messages.
Have you ever wondered how feelings could be conveyed through mere words by sms?
I have.
Sometimes, you dont need to have supernatural abilities to see through some things.
the coldness cant be felt.
I dont know, I really dont know.
Sometimes, I do wish that I have the answers to many things.
But unfortunately, I dont.
I wish for a lot of things not to happen.
In fact, if i had made the right decisions, many tragedies would not have happened.
however, I wouldn't have met many of the nice warm souls that have come into my life so unexpectedly.
___________________________________________
oh man, this somehow didnt turn out to be a very good night.
Sometimes, looking back, do I regret in letting some people into my life?
In a sense I do.
But I now know how callous the world could be.
i remember someone telling me that things could work out.
But being the indignant me,
I had to say, no, i doubt it would.
No, you're right. it is time to forget.
But it isnt that easy aint it?
I've come to a point that its so hard to forget you.
all i can say is,
sorry. will you?
Changing
Posted on:
Posted at: 9:39 PM
Posted at: 9:39 PM
I changed my blogskin( apparently, duh)
some people thought that my previous one was scary, so i changed it lah.
phew.
you can't imagine how tough it is to find another name for yourself.
hah. but anyway, I OVERCOMED IT. WHOO.
after deciding between:
1. Josephine
this is cos it'd look good if i use my initials.
RJLJ. damn cool. got 2 Js.
2. Raphael-a?
i initially was damn happy about this.
BUT, I found out that Raphael is a guy's name!
and if i changed it to be a girl's name, it sounds weird, so its out.
3. Cecilia
hah. eventually I got this.
WHY WHY WHY?
LOLS, cos Saint Cecilia is the acclaimed patron saint of music, especially church music, as well as that of musicians, composers, instrument makers and poets. The name Cecilia means blind and so, although we don't know if she herself couldn't see, she is also the Catholic patron saint of the blind.
hah. But anyway, I chose it as my confirmation name.
so now there is a meaning behind my name.
If im not wrong, Rebecca stands for ensnarer
which means the ability to trap people in uncomfortable situation.
hmm, LOL. i wonder what that means.
some people thought that my previous one was scary, so i changed it lah.
phew.
you can't imagine how tough it is to find another name for yourself.
hah. but anyway, I OVERCOMED IT. WHOO.
after deciding between:
1. Josephine
this is cos it'd look good if i use my initials.
RJLJ. damn cool. got 2 Js.
2. Raphael-a?
i initially was damn happy about this.
BUT, I found out that Raphael is a guy's name!
and if i changed it to be a girl's name, it sounds weird, so its out.
3. Cecilia
hah. eventually I got this.
WHY WHY WHY?
LOLS, cos Saint Cecilia is the acclaimed patron saint of music, especially church music, as well as that of musicians, composers, instrument makers and poets. The name Cecilia means blind and so, although we don't know if she herself couldn't see, she is also the Catholic patron saint of the blind.
hah. But anyway, I chose it as my confirmation name.
so now there is a meaning behind my name.
If im not wrong, Rebecca stands for ensnarer
which means the ability to trap people in uncomfortable situation.
hmm, LOL. i wonder what that means.