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Posted on: Monday, May 25, 2009
Posted at: 10:44 PM
Posted at: 10:44 PM
chinese intensive.
exam results.
L1R5
im going to score.
im going to score.
wait. maybe not.
PRAY PRAY PRAY i need my A1 for my CHINESE.
wah, typical attitude of a bunch of people.
nvm nvm.
im beginning to think im very screwed in my head now.
perhaps i am.
yah yah, sometimes not just because you want to shake something off you can.
you dont control how you feel.
we dont block off emotions.
yeah, there are people who can do that at some times.
But, tell me. Can you stop feeling guilty or whatever. Maybe its possible given a little more time. Maybe way more. But, you out there. listen. you cant tell a feeling to stop manifesting. Have you tried telling yourself to stop feeling happy? stop feeling sad? alright, maybe yes.
lets use the example of stop feeling sad.
yeah, sure you can tell yourself that. But in the end you jolly well know that you are still sad. Even though people dont see it.
Hmm, maybe I'm wrong in this perspective.
Maybe its the result of being a little more emotionless so that I can assure myself that I'll be fine.
For now, I just want to be in my own head.
Dont ask me anything or why. Just let me be.
I need time to feel around again, and perhaps open up and trust people.
Trust can only be built up over time. However, to destroy it, its simple. And it takes less than maybe 1 minute. And I'll show you how. The effect of it is nonetheless very great, despite it being so insignificant.
To hurt a person that trusts and loves you, just do something to hurt the person devastatingly. It doesnt have to be very big. It can be just words.
Do you know why the person will suffer a breakdown?
Not because of those words, but because of how the other person has breached that trust that was built up. The person prolly wont recover that well.
see? how words can kill.
sigh.
YAH. i know im very negative about a lot of things.
but i think thats just me.
i just wish i could sleep for days without waking up.
because i want to dream of things.
i want to rest.
but most importantly, i dont have to face much pressure.
i can continue trusting and believing in what i used to.
more significantly, you.
time and tide waits for no man.
exam results.
L1R5
im going to score.
im going to score.
wait. maybe not.
PRAY PRAY PRAY i need my A1 for my CHINESE.
wah, typical attitude of a bunch of people.
nvm nvm.
im beginning to think im very screwed in my head now.
perhaps i am.
yah yah, sometimes not just because you want to shake something off you can.
you dont control how you feel.
we dont block off emotions.
yeah, there are people who can do that at some times.
But, tell me. Can you stop feeling guilty or whatever. Maybe its possible given a little more time. Maybe way more. But, you out there. listen. you cant tell a feeling to stop manifesting. Have you tried telling yourself to stop feeling happy? stop feeling sad? alright, maybe yes.
lets use the example of stop feeling sad.
yeah, sure you can tell yourself that. But in the end you jolly well know that you are still sad. Even though people dont see it.
Hmm, maybe I'm wrong in this perspective.
Maybe its the result of being a little more emotionless so that I can assure myself that I'll be fine.
For now, I just want to be in my own head.
Dont ask me anything or why. Just let me be.
I need time to feel around again, and perhaps open up and trust people.
Trust can only be built up over time. However, to destroy it, its simple. And it takes less than maybe 1 minute. And I'll show you how. The effect of it is nonetheless very great, despite it being so insignificant.
To hurt a person that trusts and loves you, just do something to hurt the person devastatingly. It doesnt have to be very big. It can be just words.
Do you know why the person will suffer a breakdown?
Not because of those words, but because of how the other person has breached that trust that was built up. The person prolly wont recover that well.
see? how words can kill.
sigh.
YAH. i know im very negative about a lot of things.
but i think thats just me.
i just wish i could sleep for days without waking up.
because i want to dream of things.
i want to rest.
but most importantly, i dont have to face much pressure.
i can continue trusting and believing in what i used to.
more significantly, you.
time and tide waits for no man.