convinced, but so damn unhappy and dissatisfied
Posted on: Friday, April 17, 2009
Posted at: 9:40 PM
Posted at: 9:40 PM
Im convinced that the north side of singapore has super beautiful sunsets.
maybe i was dreaming on the train again.
i took the train back from yishun and seriously.
maybe im noob lah, never notice sunset.
man, i wish i took a picture of it.
red, orange, yellow, light blue, blue, navy.
damn. now i think im dreaming.
my schedule for each day in school lasts till 6 each day.
im not freaked out by it lah.
cos i kind of decided to stay back to be motivated by 4 walls.
thats just my tactic to keep myself from thinking about some stuff
that im still avoiding. ):
im filled with a million stuff that i absolutely have to do.
but im horribly distracted.
this is the result of having voices in your head.
p.s im not crazy, im just debating with myself in my head.
my head hurts so much from all the weird topics that i think. -.-
I'm not the one who broke you.
I'm not the one you should fear.
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
damn. i told you i was unhappy.
and i wanna scream and emphasize to you.
im seriously unhappy. ):
and i wonder how things will turn out if i get a second chance.
begin with the end in mind.
okkkkaaaaaaaayyyyyyy.
I practice escapism.
and damn right well.
as shown, the above post shows how i escape from my emotions.
you might not want to reason with me.
just try to tell me what is happening.
my head is killing me.
happiness can be defined in many simplistic terms.
to me, i just means having found the right company and being happy about it.
which means, im currently in this shit world
which is deemed at unhappy world.
WHOA, gasp for oxygen people.
fine. bangs head against wall.
i guess its the sacrifice that we make that counts.
but remember my dear, you still have me!
and its always a happy thought.
im going to be unselfish now.
please? take my hand already, you.
and thats what i've become.
a sacrificial metal.
WOW.
maybe i was dreaming on the train again.
i took the train back from yishun and seriously.
maybe im noob lah, never notice sunset.
man, i wish i took a picture of it.
red, orange, yellow, light blue, blue, navy.
damn. now i think im dreaming.
my schedule for each day in school lasts till 6 each day.
im not freaked out by it lah.
cos i kind of decided to stay back to be motivated by 4 walls.
thats just my tactic to keep myself from thinking about some stuff
that im still avoiding. ):
im filled with a million stuff that i absolutely have to do.
but im horribly distracted.
this is the result of having voices in your head.
p.s im not crazy, im just debating with myself in my head.
my head hurts so much from all the weird topics that i think. -.-
I'm not the one who broke you.
I'm not the one you should fear.
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
damn. i told you i was unhappy.
and i wanna scream and emphasize to you.
im seriously unhappy. ):
and i wonder how things will turn out if i get a second chance.
begin with the end in mind.
okkkkaaaaaaaayyyyyyy.
I practice escapism.
and damn right well.
as shown, the above post shows how i escape from my emotions.
you might not want to reason with me.
just try to tell me what is happening.
my head is killing me.
happiness can be defined in many simplistic terms.
to me, i just means having found the right company and being happy about it.
which means, im currently in this shit world
which is deemed at unhappy world.
WHOA, gasp for oxygen people.
fine. bangs head against wall.
i guess its the sacrifice that we make that counts.
but remember my dear, you still have me!
and its always a happy thought.
im going to be unselfish now.
please? take my hand already, you.
and thats what i've become.
a sacrificial metal.
WOW.