Things are accelerating exponentially.
Posted on: Sunday, April 26, 2009
Posted at: 5:55 PM
Posted at: 5:55 PM
I am wondering what is happening to me now.
Had an okay weekend.
MYE starting soon.
and i dont know what to expect from myself.
suddenly, i feel as if i cant trust myself too.
why is this so?
went studying yesterday,
hope pics will be up soon.
Thankyou to huiqi, edwin and nicholas lau.
it was a nice day yesterday, with the exception of losing my water bottle.
but it was quite a wonderful day,
hope we can do it again sometime soon.
2 months and 3 days.
time kinda just flies, doesnt it?
all i can do now is just to deal it my own way.
the overwhelming feeling is going to literally drown me.
have i regretted over it?
yes, i have.
wonder what i can do now to salvage it.
in my head, i know i cant do anything anymore.
RAH. if would just help me with it.
it alleviates the pain to an extent.
oh well.
Sadly, its just me in my own world now.
but anyway, thankyou for everything.
i'll miss you, but time has put a toll on man, i guess.
im trying to escape the time,
but in a way, it just tries to catch up with me.
ur 1 month is up tmr.
and so, i just wanna conclude that.
please talk to me more ._.
the reason is you.
Posted on: Monday, April 20, 2009
Posted at: 8:07 PM
Posted at: 8:07 PM
my unit worksheet for amaths absolutely hates me.
i know it does.
i gave my a frowny face today when i accidently tore it by the staple.
and the frown is still there.
come to me if you wanna see it:D
its exactly like this D:
hmmph.
Navigare necesse est - To sail is necessary
the LOL way of studying.
create a study cheer.
before studying, do that cheer to motivate you.
sing it, dance with it, anything.
LOLS
its not my way. might be effective though :D
its mind over heart.
please?
nvm. keep faith, you, keep faith.
watch ladder 49. damn touching and there's john travolta!
hahah. shine your light by robbie robertson.
damn touching. talks about leaving, in a sense.
i wonder why my mood is so melancholic nowadays.
hmm, its probably something called broken strings.
again.
im out in the open again. pfft.
i know it does.
i gave my a frowny face today when i accidently tore it by the staple.
and the frown is still there.
come to me if you wanna see it:D
its exactly like this D:
hmmph.
Navigare necesse est - To sail is necessary
the LOL way of studying.
create a study cheer.
before studying, do that cheer to motivate you.
sing it, dance with it, anything.
LOLS
its not my way. might be effective though :D
its mind over heart.
please?
nvm. keep faith, you, keep faith.
watch ladder 49. damn touching and there's john travolta!
hahah. shine your light by robbie robertson.
damn touching. talks about leaving, in a sense.
i wonder why my mood is so melancholic nowadays.
hmm, its probably something called broken strings.
again.
im out in the open again. pfft.
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Posted on: Sunday, April 19, 2009
Posted at: 9:39 PM
Posted at: 9:39 PM
001722 484022 06902 significant numbers in my whole 4 years.
and prolly a few more lah.
the 11th is a nice date,
23rd is not really good, but ahyah, forever etched there.
9th apr is actually very significant to me.
important, damn important.
but 1st is the best! LOLS.
June is a month where i meet most of the nice people
but regardless, i dun remember their birthdays. ._.
i only remember things which i deem as very important.
i guess today was kinda good.
im glad that i went for this thingy.
dunno what its called.
felt like free fall.
but its cool, u feel warm and loved.
i felt so relieved of everything.
couldnt stop crying after it though.
some thing is freaking me out though.
hope i get what's happening.
All this solitary moments just makes me feel divided.
i wonder when this will end.
i went to watch 17 again with dean and chee yong.
shared jokes, damn guo fen. hahah, lighter hor.
LOLS. zac efron is damn handsome please.
next show im watching is knowing.
anyone wants to watch with me?
u know theres always like advertisements before hand right?
i actually saw this one about family
it was an indian woman at a funeral
maybe you've seen it on tv or what.
tears kinda welled up, cos its damn touching.
its the imperfections that makes people perfect.
its also the imperfections that makes people remember each other so clearly.
always, its these little things that are imprinted so deeply in our mind.
its the comfort of knowing you are there that makes me peaceful.
so i wonder, if you still remember promises made.
and prolly a few more lah.
the 11th is a nice date,
23rd is not really good, but ahyah, forever etched there.
9th apr is actually very significant to me.
important, damn important.
but 1st is the best! LOLS.
June is a month where i meet most of the nice people
but regardless, i dun remember their birthdays. ._.
i only remember things which i deem as very important.
i guess today was kinda good.
im glad that i went for this thingy.
dunno what its called.
felt like free fall.
but its cool, u feel warm and loved.
i felt so relieved of everything.
couldnt stop crying after it though.
some thing is freaking me out though.
hope i get what's happening.
All this solitary moments just makes me feel divided.
i wonder when this will end.
i went to watch 17 again with dean and chee yong.
shared jokes, damn guo fen. hahah, lighter hor.
LOLS. zac efron is damn handsome please.
next show im watching is knowing.
anyone wants to watch with me?
u know theres always like advertisements before hand right?
i actually saw this one about family
it was an indian woman at a funeral
maybe you've seen it on tv or what.
tears kinda welled up, cos its damn touching.
its the imperfections that makes people perfect.
its also the imperfections that makes people remember each other so clearly.
always, its these little things that are imprinted so deeply in our mind.
its the comfort of knowing you are there that makes me peaceful.
so i wonder, if you still remember promises made.
convinced, but so damn unhappy and dissatisfied
Posted on: Friday, April 17, 2009
Posted at: 9:40 PM
Posted at: 9:40 PM
Im convinced that the north side of singapore has super beautiful sunsets.
maybe i was dreaming on the train again.
i took the train back from yishun and seriously.
maybe im noob lah, never notice sunset.
man, i wish i took a picture of it.
red, orange, yellow, light blue, blue, navy.
damn. now i think im dreaming.
my schedule for each day in school lasts till 6 each day.
im not freaked out by it lah.
cos i kind of decided to stay back to be motivated by 4 walls.
thats just my tactic to keep myself from thinking about some stuff
that im still avoiding. ):
im filled with a million stuff that i absolutely have to do.
but im horribly distracted.
this is the result of having voices in your head.
p.s im not crazy, im just debating with myself in my head.
my head hurts so much from all the weird topics that i think. -.-
I'm not the one who broke you.
I'm not the one you should fear.
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
damn. i told you i was unhappy.
and i wanna scream and emphasize to you.
im seriously unhappy. ):
and i wonder how things will turn out if i get a second chance.
begin with the end in mind.
okkkkaaaaaaaayyyyyyy.
I practice escapism.
and damn right well.
as shown, the above post shows how i escape from my emotions.
you might not want to reason with me.
just try to tell me what is happening.
my head is killing me.
happiness can be defined in many simplistic terms.
to me, i just means having found the right company and being happy about it.
which means, im currently in this shit world
which is deemed at unhappy world.
WHOA, gasp for oxygen people.
fine. bangs head against wall.
i guess its the sacrifice that we make that counts.
but remember my dear, you still have me!
and its always a happy thought.
im going to be unselfish now.
please? take my hand already, you.
and thats what i've become.
a sacrificial metal.
WOW.
maybe i was dreaming on the train again.
i took the train back from yishun and seriously.
maybe im noob lah, never notice sunset.
man, i wish i took a picture of it.
red, orange, yellow, light blue, blue, navy.
damn. now i think im dreaming.
my schedule for each day in school lasts till 6 each day.
im not freaked out by it lah.
cos i kind of decided to stay back to be motivated by 4 walls.
thats just my tactic to keep myself from thinking about some stuff
that im still avoiding. ):
im filled with a million stuff that i absolutely have to do.
but im horribly distracted.
this is the result of having voices in your head.
p.s im not crazy, im just debating with myself in my head.
my head hurts so much from all the weird topics that i think. -.-
I'm not the one who broke you.
I'm not the one you should fear.
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
damn. i told you i was unhappy.
and i wanna scream and emphasize to you.
im seriously unhappy. ):
and i wonder how things will turn out if i get a second chance.
begin with the end in mind.
okkkkaaaaaaaayyyyyyy.
I practice escapism.
and damn right well.
as shown, the above post shows how i escape from my emotions.
you might not want to reason with me.
just try to tell me what is happening.
my head is killing me.
happiness can be defined in many simplistic terms.
to me, i just means having found the right company and being happy about it.
which means, im currently in this shit world
which is deemed at unhappy world.
WHOA, gasp for oxygen people.
fine. bangs head against wall.
i guess its the sacrifice that we make that counts.
but remember my dear, you still have me!
and its always a happy thought.
im going to be unselfish now.
please? take my hand already, you.
and thats what i've become.
a sacrificial metal.
WOW.
cos you're all i need
Posted on: Friday, April 3, 2009
Posted at: 10:52 PM
Posted at: 10:52 PM
okay. i know long time since i updated.
anyway, anyway, anyway.
no pic or lyrics.
cos no time. ARGH.
through my 4 years in swiss,
i think being in band has been the most most most wonderful thing so far :D
have so much to write but so little time. D:
i'm really thankful to my section for giving me so much support all this while.
yeah, i know we have spats, quarrels and bitching.
but seriously, you guys are the best!
i will miss sparring and testing my debating skills on reynard,
oh man, those were the days when i keep quarreling with him.
and we would just ignore each other for days.
and suddenly, poof we're good friends again.
i will miss talking nonsense to alfred.
we used to crap like siao in band last time.
and im very very proud of him that he has worked super super hard to become my PP!
YAY! dont worry, ______ will be with you soon!
i miss crapping with brent too.
walao. when we were sec 2 we will hit each other
and i'll always go to find him and persuade him.
last time i think i was a crap SL lah compared to reynard.
and we'll always play during band cos we're sitting at the back.
and its through him, that i know shin chieh better.
and im super happy!
and yunzhen,
we became good friends through band.
very very happy!
everytime last time had to beg you to come for band.
LOLS, but very sad that in the end you cant come.
anyway, we'll be friends for a long time to come.
i'll miss daryl, siting, jie qi and zhexi.
daryl- for looking at me while im practicing and never failing to make me laugh.
and thn laugh at me cos i cant stand looking at his face. and for cracking all those weird and dumb jokes.
siting- for being the first junior that i taught, and at first really solid one! and for being so much like me while i was in lower sec! seriously! i'll always cherish you cos i feel that you're the one that has helped me learn how to teach efficiently.
zhexi- for always being there when im down. for always being there when im close to hyperventilating and crying, for always being a listening ear to me! you're the best man! thank you very much, brother. i dont know who i will really turn to if not for you. you're another one that has given me a sense of achievement cos you're the one i've taught so much, and see you grow up from a sec 1 who doesnt want to tell me his name, to the strong junior im so proud of now. thank you for making your senior so proud of you!
jie qi- i love the cuteness you always portray lah. LOL. but yes, i know we're not that close. but i want you to know. im still happy that you're my junior and im proud of you!
to my sec 2s,
cherish your sec 3 cos they're going to be gone damn soon.
i thought i had a lot of time when i was a sec 3
and hoon wei ern! i super love disturbing you. not purposely though,
tahan me for awhile more lah!
to me sec 1s,
thank you for being so proactive in whatever you are doing!
i remember i had to press people to borrow instrument home
*shoots a look at wei ern*
and for being so interested in learning.
i'll be back to see how you all have grown.
thanks for being so sweet and making your seniors' day!
wah, still got a lot cannot finish. shall type the rest another day.
i love you guys! (:
be like a postage stamp!
Stick to one thing until you get there! (:
section outing tomorrow! :D
this week has exactly been the best of weeks.
is it me, cos i havent really been focused, or what?
because i keep getting flashbacks of the past which i didnt have previously.
im very very distracted by it.
but thing is, im finding an answer as to why i get all this flashbacks.
its not healthy to my mind right now.
and ^$#@*&^*(@ i dont want to have them.
cos it keeps reminding me of all those good times.
and I DONT WANT TO REMEMBER AND GET HURT. shit lah.
and i wish im still there.
but now, the words i can give is.
NVM. BYE.
what crap is that?! jafhskjedf
anyway, i kinda miss talking to a lot of my primary school friends.
i remember everytime during CL lesson,
me jorene and joel would crap a lot and talk a lot.
i remember valerie, brent, benjamin, siying, derek, wei jie, eunice, melvin, and blah blah blah.
and ZAFRAN! got bullied by him a lot in the past.
i kinda regret that i havent been going to their outings.
damn. everytime on CCA days!
hahah, maybe one of these days we'll meet up again.
TIME FLIES lah.
yesterday, after 2.4km.
Dean decided to amuse me for the whole of yesterday.
he looked at a pipe and asked
"is that a natural gas pipe?"
i was thinking about it the whole day and kept laughing.
i think i have great laughs at stuff every other day.
except today.
kept giving people the -.- and ._. and *_* look the whole day.
i zonk out lah. YAH LAH.
cos i can wait forever? :D
anyway, anyway, anyway.
no pic or lyrics.
cos no time. ARGH.
through my 4 years in swiss,
i think being in band has been the most most most wonderful thing so far :D
have so much to write but so little time. D:
i'm really thankful to my section for giving me so much support all this while.
yeah, i know we have spats, quarrels and bitching.
but seriously, you guys are the best!
i will miss sparring and testing my debating skills on reynard,
oh man, those were the days when i keep quarreling with him.
and we would just ignore each other for days.
and suddenly, poof we're good friends again.
i will miss talking nonsense to alfred.
we used to crap like siao in band last time.
and im very very proud of him that he has worked super super hard to become my PP!
YAY! dont worry, ______ will be with you soon!
i miss crapping with brent too.
walao. when we were sec 2 we will hit each other
and i'll always go to find him and persuade him.
last time i think i was a crap SL lah compared to reynard.
and we'll always play during band cos we're sitting at the back.
and its through him, that i know shin chieh better.
and im super happy!
and yunzhen,
we became good friends through band.
very very happy!
everytime last time had to beg you to come for band.
LOLS, but very sad that in the end you cant come.
anyway, we'll be friends for a long time to come.
i'll miss daryl, siting, jie qi and zhexi.
daryl- for looking at me while im practicing and never failing to make me laugh.
and thn laugh at me cos i cant stand looking at his face. and for cracking all those weird and dumb jokes.
siting- for being the first junior that i taught, and at first really solid one! and for being so much like me while i was in lower sec! seriously! i'll always cherish you cos i feel that you're the one that has helped me learn how to teach efficiently.
zhexi- for always being there when im down. for always being there when im close to hyperventilating and crying, for always being a listening ear to me! you're the best man! thank you very much, brother. i dont know who i will really turn to if not for you. you're another one that has given me a sense of achievement cos you're the one i've taught so much, and see you grow up from a sec 1 who doesnt want to tell me his name, to the strong junior im so proud of now. thank you for making your senior so proud of you!
jie qi- i love the cuteness you always portray lah. LOL. but yes, i know we're not that close. but i want you to know. im still happy that you're my junior and im proud of you!
to my sec 2s,
cherish your sec 3 cos they're going to be gone damn soon.
i thought i had a lot of time when i was a sec 3
and hoon wei ern! i super love disturbing you. not purposely though,
tahan me for awhile more lah!
to me sec 1s,
thank you for being so proactive in whatever you are doing!
i remember i had to press people to borrow instrument home
*shoots a look at wei ern*
and for being so interested in learning.
i'll be back to see how you all have grown.
thanks for being so sweet and making your seniors' day!
wah, still got a lot cannot finish. shall type the rest another day.
i love you guys! (:
be like a postage stamp!
Stick to one thing until you get there! (:
section outing tomorrow! :D
this week has exactly been the best of weeks.
is it me, cos i havent really been focused, or what?
because i keep getting flashbacks of the past which i didnt have previously.
im very very distracted by it.
but thing is, im finding an answer as to why i get all this flashbacks.
its not healthy to my mind right now.
and ^$#@*&^*(@ i dont want to have them.
cos it keeps reminding me of all those good times.
and I DONT WANT TO REMEMBER AND GET HURT. shit lah.
and i wish im still there.
but now, the words i can give is.
NVM. BYE.
what crap is that?! jafhskjedf
anyway, i kinda miss talking to a lot of my primary school friends.
i remember everytime during CL lesson,
me jorene and joel would crap a lot and talk a lot.
i remember valerie, brent, benjamin, siying, derek, wei jie, eunice, melvin, and blah blah blah.
and ZAFRAN! got bullied by him a lot in the past.
i kinda regret that i havent been going to their outings.
damn. everytime on CCA days!
hahah, maybe one of these days we'll meet up again.
TIME FLIES lah.
yesterday, after 2.4km.
Dean decided to amuse me for the whole of yesterday.
he looked at a pipe and asked
"is that a natural gas pipe?"
i was thinking about it the whole day and kept laughing.
i think i have great laughs at stuff every other day.
except today.
kept giving people the -.- and ._. and *_* look the whole day.
i zonk out lah. YAH LAH.
cos i can wait forever? :D