tough times, even tougher measures
Posted on: Monday, March 9, 2009
Posted at: 10:39 PM
Posted at: 10:39 PM
yeah, tough times.
stressful period of the year.
plus truckloads of work and people tugging on your emotions.
and all i can think of is:
let me blast the music.
i think i should practice on poker face.
haha. new phrase that i learnt from ongminli today.
it means to show no sign of emotions or whatever.
i realise that emotions are often controlled by others, not by yourself.
many lose control of their emotions,
not because they want to.
but because they cant help it.
i wonder if there's a cure for horrid emotions
like being angry, upset, heartbroken, demoralised.
But then again, with these emotions gone,
where is the world going to be?
gotten over, but also not gotten over.
this shows how insecure and at the same time lost in my head.
lack of confidence in self and all.
forgotten, but also remembered.
lost, but also hope that it can be found again.
im just being an aimless soul all over again.
granted that im glad that i have a big bunch of people that i can talk easily with.
like
ahsoon, ongmeebong, brother Z and brother RJ, theodoros chan, nicholas liu, jewel loo.
hah. i swear this people really make my days at times.
and there's many more people lah.
i know people care. maybe i just dont really notice.
but to those i missed out, im touched okay.
but its just that emptiness needs to be filled up.
by something more.
something pure, sweet and innocent,
and with no intentions from people, carrying knifes all around
like tribal cavemen and throwing poisonous darts all around.
cos thats really like the last thing i want to experience now.
We used to have this under control.
When I say I’m sorry,
Will you believe me?
Listen to my story,
Say you won’t leave me.
When I say I’m sorry,
Can you forgive me?
When I say I will always be there,
Will you believe, will you believe in me?
Its not easy to forget.
To me, human nature is weird.
Psychology and science doesnt explain everything.
Laughter isnt the best medicine,
Numbing yourself with love is the best medicine.
second nature.
stressful period of the year.
plus truckloads of work and people tugging on your emotions.
and all i can think of is:
let me blast the music.
i think i should practice on poker face.
haha. new phrase that i learnt from ongminli today.
it means to show no sign of emotions or whatever.
i realise that emotions are often controlled by others, not by yourself.
many lose control of their emotions,
not because they want to.
but because they cant help it.
i wonder if there's a cure for horrid emotions
like being angry, upset, heartbroken, demoralised.
But then again, with these emotions gone,
where is the world going to be?
gotten over, but also not gotten over.
this shows how insecure and at the same time lost in my head.
lack of confidence in self and all.
forgotten, but also remembered.
lost, but also hope that it can be found again.
im just being an aimless soul all over again.
granted that im glad that i have a big bunch of people that i can talk easily with.
like
ahsoon, ongmeebong, brother Z and brother RJ, theodoros chan, nicholas liu, jewel loo.
hah. i swear this people really make my days at times.
and there's many more people lah.
i know people care. maybe i just dont really notice.
but to those i missed out, im touched okay.
but its just that emptiness needs to be filled up.
by something more.
something pure, sweet and innocent,
and with no intentions from people, carrying knifes all around
like tribal cavemen and throwing poisonous darts all around.
cos thats really like the last thing i want to experience now.
We used to have this under control.
When I say I’m sorry,
Will you believe me?
Listen to my story,
Say you won’t leave me.
When I say I’m sorry,
Can you forgive me?
When I say I will always be there,
Will you believe, will you believe in me?
Its not easy to forget.
To me, human nature is weird.
Psychology and science doesnt explain everything.
Laughter isnt the best medicine,
Numbing yourself with love is the best medicine.
second nature.